On 26 reds and a bottle of wine

got stuck on reading quotes today....i have no reason why.....started w/ some buddha stuff, then moved on to morrison and ginsberg and then i came across one that was labeled 'anonymous' and it struck me....i dont know who the fuck 'anonymous' is but damn..........

“You can shed tears that he is gone,
or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all he's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember him only that he is gone,
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

but damn. im doing pretty damn good lately....sort of have a thing, whatever it is, with someone that i respect and admire as a human.....thats new, someone that is well read, well versed in life and has some pretty amazing soul windows.......its very odd...very very odd...but i think i could just sit and drink tea and TALK to him for like hours.....weird....and i dont have to be the one to carry the convo, he has things to SAY!!! things to mean...he understands the value of gratitude and that for me is huge....so, we'll see. i like his skin on mine, and that cant be bad right???? and the piercing on the back of his neck is pretty hot....;) im enjoying the fact that he calls me out on my shit, that he is honest and open and straight forward, not at all flaky, and his maturity level is not that of a 12 year old...thank zombie jesus.hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhahahahaha, i know how morbid this is, but grant reminded me of this song, and it cracks me up......


Teddy sniffing glue, he was 12 years old
Fell from the roof on East Two-nine
Cathy was 11 when she pulled the plug
On 26 reds and a bottle of wine
Bobby got leukemia, 14 years old
He looked like 65 when he died
He was a friend of mine

Those are people who died, died
They were all my friends, and they died

G-berg and Georgie let their gimmicks go rotten
So they died of hepatitis in upper Manhattan
Sly in Vietnam took a bullet in the head
Bobby OD'd on Drano on the night that he was wed
They were two more friends of mine
Two more friends that died

Those are people who died, died
They were all my friends, and they died

Mary took a dry dive from a hotel room
Bobby hung himself from a cell in the tombs
Judy jumped in front of a subway train
Eddie got slit in the jugular vein
And Eddie, I miss you more than all the others
And I salute you brother

Those are people who died, died
They were all my friends, and they died

Herbie pushed Tony from the Boys' Club roof
Tony thought that his rage was just some goof
But Herbie sure gave Tony some bitchen proof
"Hey," Herbie said, "Tony, can you fly?"
But Tony couldn't fly, Tony died

Those are people who died, died
They were all my friends, and they died

Brian got busted on a narco rap
He beat the rap by rattin' on some bikers
He said, "Hey, I know it's dangerous, but it sure beats Riker's"
But the next day he got offed by the very same bikers

Those are people who died, died
They were all my friends, and they died