Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Just close your eyes and ignore the dark that troubles you most


how do i put a link in here? http://www.gorsky.razorcake.org/ yeah!!! im smarterest now!!! that link is there for you to follow, jerks. look up Sean Carswell....first and foremost, i havent been into an american author since my obsession w/ kerouac took hold......lately been reading a lot of limeys and micks....and well, by heritage, carswell is a mick, but he is american. lived in flagstaff for a lot of years, as a matter of fact. in the winter, i went to a bukowski fest w/ some friends of mine at one of our favorite bars. some guy did a reading from a book called "Barney's Crew" and it was friggin awesome, dude...hilarious and thought provoking and well, just plain cool. but i just went about gettin' drunk and didnt remember the author....ah well...last weekend, the news girl here(who is awesome btw) kicked me down a ticket to the book festival...since i was already half in the can and just right across the street from the theatre, i went....besides i was talked into it by cody who reassured me that there would, in fact, be PBR and vodka at the theatre, so its not like we had to sit through poetry readings sober......anyway--------took our seats and there was a lady reading from her book of mommy poetry..and she was good, for sure...but not really my speed...again, not really into american authors OR poets...especially when its all crying, sentimental, mommy shit...i just dont have that gene, or chromosome, or give a fuck, or something....she wasnt terrible though, thats not what im saying, just not my taste....ok, ok...so the MC gets up and intros the next dude and says 'the author of "Barney's Crew"....just put out a new book called "Train Wreck Girl"(which i had JUST read about like the day before, and put on my list of summer reads)...Sean Carswell' well hell, looks like we're stayin now, eh???? the dude was bad ass...funny funny funny but also made me cry(i know, right???!) and think. he was reading from the new book...and its all about him breaking up w/ his girlfriend and then she dies....and then about how life just keeps going whether you want it to or not...close to home......but funny as shit! i just ordered ALL of his books from gorsky(thats the link), which is his pub house, for 4 bucks a piece. unfortunately his debut "Drinks for the Little Guy" was sold out and "Train Wreck Girl" wasnt available....but im ok with that. i'll get them eventually...i mean, my birthday IS coming up, and i DID give you the link and tell you that the books are only 4 bucks! hahahahha...hahahh.


oh, and i suppose it wouldnt be zombie times at lulu high if i didnt throw in some sadness/madness, right?

thanks so much for the email - everything that happened just seems so
wrong. I start crying just trying to write to you.It actually gets
kind of harder as the shock wears offI. In his stuff was a letter from you to him, written way back in high school or Jr. High. If you want it I
can mail it to you. Funny how he had saved it so long. You were alway
so special to him - he just wasn't well. I gotta go, can't be crying at
work. I'll be away from my computer till next Tuesday. Hugs, Shawn


an email i got from Ray's ma today in regards to one i wrote to her. mine just said that i wanted her to call me if she needed anything, etc....and that if she wants to see the worm to let me know...so many letters from/to him that i could compile them and write a book....maybe....

So try to sleep with a smile
I promise ill wait a while
To make sure that you moved on
You won’t be lost
I will always hold your hand
Ill never let you fall

Cause nothing Nothing else matters at all
If you’re scared just think of me
‘Cause you know ill never let you be
Anywhere but with me


15 comments:

Anonymous said...

This lyric doesn't really have anything at all to do with this post, but i haven't been able to get i out of my head so I wanted to share it. It's from a P.O.S. song featuring Slug of Atmosphere, "Bush League Psych-out Stuff". This verse is actually Slug:

Sometimes I feel like a bastard surrounded by fathers
Fasioning themselves to resemble action figures
Passing opinions across the pasture like we asked you
Like we have to have your last pieces gathered, like it even matters
Like we're trying to climb this ladder a little bit faster
Like I'd rather let the captain lead us into disaster

K, that's all. Just wanted to share. Bye now.

zombielu said...

hahaha yes!

kuntface said...

Come on...nothing for two days?

Anonymous said...

brooke's a troll!

zombielu said...

i love the word troll. so many meanings in such a small word

Anonymous said...

true. she's at least one of them, but definitley not this kind: http://q.queso.com/slideShow.php?pic=142

hockeytemper said...

Sure would like to read YOUR blog Brooke...too bad it doesn't exist.

kuntface said...

Well, Steve...all you have to do is read the above the comments...remember, I am simply a "troll". I enjoy spending my time "trolling" other blogs. Perhaps I do have a blog...it's just not under Brooke...I have chosen not to share it because of the mob mentality you people have plainly displayed.

zombielu said...

hhhhhhhhhhhhhahahahahahahahaaaaahahhaha mob mentality. hhhhhhhhahahaaaaahahaaaaaahahahahaaa

hockeytemper said...

If "mob mentality" as you put it means multiple friends sticking up for one friend in the face of insults from one little drive-by, gnat-like person with no life such as yourself...then I guess we're the mob.

"It's over, it's done
the end is begun
If you listen to fools...
The Mob Rules"

zombielu said...

steven, you really ARE the mob....der, don linguini???? hellllllllllo

kuntface said...

Steve
I just enjoy the fact that you "think" you are ever so clever..truly a sign of someone who is bipolar...you must be having a manic day today.

hockeytemper said...

Clever enough to work in the entertainment world and not at McDonalds...

kuntface said...

If you only knew...

zombielu said...

ok, i enjoy a good ridiculous rant and argument as much (perhaps more than) as the next guy, but i have to interject here.....this blog is about books mostly, and about ray and his mother's loss, and a little bit about the dance hall crashers(if you read into the lyrics) so if you all could just either stick to the content(because it is important to me)or take your comments elsewhere, i would be very appreciative. in fact, i will create a blog for you to just argue and call each other names and accuse me of being lame k? thanks, drive through. ♥